tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56337302011-04-22T10:58:03.100+08:00mY.LifE - wiTh n wItHouT usomewhere i get to pen my random thoughts and ramblings down.johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comBlogger2471100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1109519790822278302005-02-27T23:56:00.000+08:002005-02-27T23:56:30.823+08:00歌手:胡彦斌 专辑:music混合体waiting for you金色的舞鞋伴着音乐 baby你的眼睛是一弯深邃的湖水哦忽明忽灭掩藏不可思议的美让我眩晕在悬崖边谁知一睁眼就不见waiting for you i'm waiting for you waiting for you kiss me at the night为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念waiting for you i'm waiting for you waiting for you come here to my dream牵着你不断旋转一直到黑发变成了银线waiting for you waiting for you 直到永远哦忽明忽灭掩藏不可思议的美让我眩晕在悬崖边谁知一睁眼就不见waiting for you i'm waiyINK =P [[sshroomss]] shingles johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1109344980467175152005-02-25T23:20:00.000+08:002005-02-25T23:23:00.470+08:00firstly, realised i haven updated for a long time...but still...went out for k box todae...had a wonderful dae...dint plan to go at first. coz yinky wanted to call her frens along...but went in de endcoz she told her frens not to godid our usual routine of recording wu dingrecording jian aon tryin out all the stupid duets we never managed to sing...all sounded horrible to me..in fact.think my johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1107682097953224722005-02-06T17:27:00.000+08:002005-02-06T17:28:17.953+08:00how pathetic..
de first thing i was asked to do after arriving
was to go the community centre.
urgh.
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1107066871918252012005-01-30T14:31:00.000+08:002005-01-30T14:34:31.916+08:00which japanese restaurant serves raw vegetables? as in those leafy green ones
well, de one i jsut went did...
de veges were tough, chewy, elastic, etc... cldn't even swallow it after chewing for 2 mins..
anyway. went for a cruise dinner todae..
ok.. mebbe not a cruise.. but a small ship...
wiv candles n nice lighting...
n de ship will set sale for 2 hrs.. while u busk in de moonlight and enjoy johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1107012934654654242005-01-29T23:34:00.000+08:002005-01-29T23:35:34.656+08:00its really hard work to keep a smlie on my face.
10% of the time, i'm happy
de remaining 90...
i put on a fake smile..
if onli i could find dat one person.
who could turn my fake smiles into real ones.
not just for 10% of the time
but for every single minute of my life.
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1106322248355332012005-01-21T23:38:00.000+08:002005-01-21T23:44:08.356+08:00just finished 22 chapters of MVP valentine.... and i kinda discovered... that i have changed....
i'm no longer the guy who watched MVP qing ren 2 yrs ago.... sittin in front of the television set, refusing to sleep, n crying to every single scene when xiao xi and duan cheng feng were seperated...
to begin wiv,
i didnt cry animore.
okae, but thats not the point
thru this, i realised that....johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1105957394108303382005-01-17T18:07:00.000+08:002005-01-17T18:28:34.066+08:00wahaha.... gosh... got to put this down on my blog coz its kinda gettin too exciting for me to keep silent about it...
it all started with me discovering this really cool place to club and dine in in bangkok. refer to www.bedsupperclub.com for more details...
so basically... i thought this was a really cool clubbin concept... and its goin to be revolutionary if i'm goin to introduce it to johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1105278643386153532005-01-09T21:45:00.000+08:002005-01-09T21:50:43.386+08:00second day in bangkok...
sumhow managed to sleep thru de night with the aid of some anti-hystemine pills for my rashes..
in fact, de pills kept me asleep all de way till 12noon...
den went out wiv my mum de entire day...
bought a book..
my first book in fact...
its entitled "beijing dolls" hahx.... full of sensuality...
its actualli a diary of dis chinese girl called chen sui... n de culture of johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1105115802099256482005-01-08T01:35:00.000+08:002005-01-08T00:36:42.100+08:00i'm actually goin to be in thailand for a mth?
sigh... cant imagine now...
dere's too much in singapore to do... i just dun feel like goin over...
but tickets booked, plans are made.. i cant just back out lidat..
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went out todae wiv cenz...
went town for a walk.. shopping.. (hmm.. i actualli shop.. kinda amazed)..
saw mani ppl i knew todae...
yuxi... den jiahui n maryann... etcetc...johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1104990887127067532005-01-06T13:52:00.000+08:002005-01-06T13:54:47.126+08:00I wonder when this craze for updating my blog would end.
Now that school has ended, and i'm basically slacking my day away at home in front of the televison or computer,
i guess you would expect and see more updates here... (including this new skin i just uploaded) and a brand new comment box..
leavin for bangkok in 2 days...
and i wont be back till a mth later...
gee..
to my buddies who are johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1104932186982717722005-01-05T21:31:00.000+08:002005-01-05T21:36:26.983+08:00all i want is someone who cares for me
who loves me wholeheartedly
who show that i mean something....
i found her once
then i foolishly let her go
n now...
no one treats me like that animore.
i'm sick of this.
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1104929522134669812005-01-05T20:49:00.000+08:002005-01-05T20:52:02.133+08:00something's wrong with me lately...
i get mood swings like once every few hours or sth..
bad mood within seconds
good mood in another 5..
sat down to reflect on myself last night..
realised that the problem wiv me is that.
i need ppl to care..
i need attention..
n ya.. it sux when i feel alone.
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1104597883753451522005-01-02T01:42:00.000+08:002005-01-02T00:44:43.753+08:00haven been updating much... but oh well, since its de new year, i thought it would be good to start my blog up and running again.....
so mani things haf happened since de last time i've updated.... de a lvls haf ended, competitions, clubbing experiences, n de most recent.... de tsunami...
its heartbreaking to see the families of those victims of the tsunami crying n stuff... n wads worse... i johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1097765810963724762004-10-14T22:54:00.000+08:002004-10-14T22:56:50.963+08:00dunno y i don feel like blogging lately..
it was farewell todae.. cried when mr khoo gave his speech la... how embarassing...
i wonder how come i haf so mani tear glands for a guy..
a pretty swt poem i received on an email...
Have I ever told youthat if I sit really still and silent,sometimes. I like to thinkI can hear your heart beatingin time with mine?Have I ever told youthat when I watch johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1096954722336447552004-10-05T13:37:00.000+08:002004-10-05T13:41:15.460+08:00its your birthday
another year has past
ah... oh well...
yeaps....
ah .... my fren's bdae y'dae.. but haven exactly talked to her for ages...
but yah...
nvm...
its de heart that counts...so yah!
happi bdae.. haha...
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1096549415483564612004-09-30T21:02:00.000+08:002004-09-30T21:03:35.483+08:00studying seem to be not working for me..
sigh..
i seriously wonder why
gettin horribly demoralised
what good is a DDE when want i want is an AAB for my a levels...
i studied
its not as if i didnt..
urghx...
i miss the RV mentality sumhow..
de times where gettin 70 for marks is considered poor..
now gettin a 52 and i'm considered pretty okay..
urghx..
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1095686679617253902004-09-20T21:24:00.001+08:002004-09-20T21:24:39.616+08:00johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1094317115487688512004-09-05T01:57:00.000+08:002004-09-05T00:58:35.486+08:00in a bad mood.. as in...
a really bad mood.....
why is it so hard to trust anyone at all?
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1094101799811501892004-09-02T13:08:00.000+08:002004-09-02T13:09:59.810+08:00i've got to prepare both a fast and a slow song
den draw lots on stage to decide which song i'll sing first
and frm that first performance, only 5 will be selected out of de 12 finalists...
gosh... i mean...
wad kind of format is this?!! its kinda unfair rite...
1) i cant sing fast songs
2) only 5 out of 12 finalists?? (i'm already one of de number 12th in terms of singing...)
3) 30% of de johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1093779202313692212004-08-29T19:28:00.000+08:002004-08-29T19:33:22.313+08:00it was rhapsody semi finals today... went to cineleisure k union early in de morning ALONE... n i mean.. i dint even noe dat u could bring supporters there... so there it goes... i was greeted by a group of enthusiastic 24 other semi finalists with like 100 other ppl (their supporters)... hahz... n it does feel scary to step up stage knowing that none of ur frens are watching..
but i sang johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1093159714513957812004-08-22T15:21:00.000+08:002004-08-22T15:28:34.513+08:00went for hwa chong jc's ge yao yesterday... (song writing competition).. n ryan was in it! :P hahax... was very nervous for him before de entire event...
well.. think the songs were pretty okae.... some of dem had realli nice tunes, nice lyrics.. but just bad singing....
others had good singers, but amateurish tunes n lyrics...
the best song to me was "du ping guo".... sang by ryan... lyrics by johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1092933777228874332004-08-20T00:41:00.000+08:002004-08-20T00:42:57.230+08:00i'm going to need a BCC at least for my prelims....
or i probably would breakdown or sth...
urghx...
i need somebody to pull me up
before i start to drown in this deep grey ocean..
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1092757061950531282004-08-17T23:35:00.000+08:002004-08-17T23:37:41.950+08:00i dun see my future in university
but i cant stop studying now
a levels r approaching
n i've got to go NS.
n i wanna study music
song writing n stuffs..
argh.. just where do i go frm here? : my results r shitty, my life's screwed up. ARHHHHHHH
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1092569457938502832004-08-15T19:29:00.000+08:002004-08-15T19:30:57.936+08:00had soccer with the guys today.. n yesterday ryan n detong slept over... =)
missed talkin n plaeing de ps2 wiv those guys manz...
n soccer today realli rocks...
i was realli on form...
at least to me...
hahax...
but fitness wise... i cldn't play 2 consecutive games in a row...
totally breathless... =
gee.. n NS is coming..
cant believe it..
but yup...
looking forward to the man utd match later!!johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1091935433080375812004-08-08T11:23:00.000+08:002004-08-08T11:23:53.080+08:00love is like an imperfect circle, it has its own bumps but it goes on and on without ever ending...
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1090595190431922342004-07-23T23:03:00.000+08:002004-07-23T23:06:30.430+08:00gee.. gonna help teachers plae de keyboard for the songs on mother tongue day performance..
and i cant believe it.. de teacher actualli said i had to take my photo to advertise de event
so i stared into de camera
n she said i was too serious
so i did sth lame.. sth faggoty.. n she happily took it..... hope she doesn't put that up... sigh..
aniwae... i'm beginnin to enjoy pe lessons.. haf been johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1089907602176714282004-07-16T00:03:00.000+08:002004-07-16T00:06:42.176+08:00did i say stella rocks! haha..
changed my display pic long ago.. but now that i am lookin at my blog... how come de photo is kinda.. urm.. skewed??!!
ani1 has de code to make de photo look normal?
hmmm... aniwae..
results are bad...
frm a BCD for common tests
i have got like an OFF or sth for mid yrs... :(
scary thinking abt it...
i'm so off lah... wad kind of results is this... SIGH...
N IT johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1089722892226016622004-07-13T20:45:00.000+08:002004-07-13T20:48:12.226+08:00if not for.... you
yah...
i wont even noe she wrote such stuffs on her blog...
yeaps.. so thanks for making me
wake up..
and yup...wad one wk r'ship?
i've erased that part of my memory...
if she has, so why cant i?
praise God that i knew such a girl
so i can fall, stand up, and be stronger.
God makes wonders...
i'm just so glad i've grown frm this
stupid
freaking
incident.
ABSTINENCE
NO johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1089712042271559882004-07-13T17:44:00.000+08:002004-07-13T17:47:22.270+08:00screw up shitty mood today
talked back at that gp teacher.... she was a total ass.
i mean at least to me.
so i stood up
told her wad i felt abt her method of teaching
her attitude
n all the crap she has been blabbering ever since i attended her first gp lesson.
thank gdness i dint get into trouble wiv de principal though.
was preparing for de worst.
but certainly felt ten times better after johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1089642791233102372004-07-12T22:32:00.000+08:002004-07-12T22:33:11.233+08:00just read sth i nv thought i wld read..
screw it.
does a freaking 1 wk r'ship mean dat it isn't a r'ship?
screw myself for loving too easily
screw myself for ever trusting girls.johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1089642689937552262004-07-12T22:31:00.000+08:002004-07-12T22:31:29.936+08:00screw it
girls suck.
i mean it.johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1089536743759612782004-07-11T17:04:00.000+08:002004-07-11T17:05:43.760+08:00i cant stand it
when i read things
that i dun wanna see
been runnin a fever of 40 degrees for de past 4 days...
missed econs test
missed sch..
but yea
thank God..
fever recovered 2 days ago..
must be due to those constant prayers or sth..
but my cough's still bad
throat's still hoarse
and my runny nose still flows like an uncontrollable tap
HELP
SCH IS TMR
i better recover
or i'm goin to needjohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1088933956094560292004-07-04T17:36:00.000+08:002004-07-04T17:39:16.093+08:00AH HAH
in contrast, today's sunday soccer totally rocked!...
assisted a few goals for michael n detong (which i rarely do considering i cant assist either)...
scored a total of 7 goals!!!...
managed to do a few step overs.....
a little dribbling..
feint shots..
ARH.. today was just reali fun la...
and i wonder why it was so easy.. perhaps it was coz i was playing with detong mike they all... notjohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1088933768726464822004-07-04T17:32:00.000+08:002004-07-04T17:36:08.726+08:00ah.. yesterday was a bad day for mi out at soccer..
at marvin's house court, despite my freshness and sufficient sleep, i scuffed every shot, my first touch was horrible, i felt lost at the court, manmarking my own players at times, etc...
probably one of the worst outings...
as a striker who camps and works very little defending, i shld haf scored many more goals than just one pathetic goal johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1088792704968783542004-07-03T02:24:00.000+08:002004-07-03T02:25:04.966+08:00I wait by the phone everyday
But you never call
I get ready to go somewhere
But you never show up
I tell you important things
But you never listen
I say I love you
But you never answer
I write you mail
But you never respond
I ask if you love me, I ask if you care
But you never pay attention to me.
You make me feel all alone.
You make me feel unloved.
You make me feel like no one cares and no onejohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1088152887146072482004-06-25T16:41:00.000+08:002004-06-25T16:41:30.810+08:00How to make a John
Ingredients:
5 parts success
3 parts humour
5 parts ego
Method:Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Top it off with a sprinkle of fitness and enjoy!
Username:
Personality cocktailFrom Go-Quiz.com
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1088152491630198332004-06-25T16:33:00.000+08:002004-06-25T16:34:51.630+08:003 days to exams
3 days = the number of days i sat down with a piece of paper in front of me (and i do not exactly mean seriously studying)
Common Test Grades : B D D
Mid Yr Target : D E E
...
i miss you.johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1087397364656387342004-06-16T22:45:00.000+08:002004-06-16T22:49:53.920+08:003 No-Nos when it comes to breaking up with ur other half.
1) do not mail us a break up letter
we certainly do not appreciate reading a great deal of reasons why we should break up without really hearing u say those words thru ur mouth. it takes greater ability to lie through your teeth, than lie with your words
2) do not make it sound as though u are at fault
as much as you think that would johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1087149528061471202004-06-14T01:58:00.000+08:002004-06-14T01:58:48.060+08:00it is hard to love another
after u have lost someone u loved a lot.johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1087025019848839502004-06-12T15:22:00.000+08:002004-06-12T15:23:39.846+08:00studies are the most important ..
family de nxt ..
but dont' u understand...
u r as important as everyting else that is important..
i claim i'm moving on
but am i really moving on?
or am i treading on fast-drying cement,
constantly treading on de same spot without moving forward
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1086546490860654132004-06-07T02:28:00.000+08:002004-06-07T02:28:10.860+08:00i'm to end this chapter of my life soon
and begin wiv another new journey of life
i have to
i must
coz i cant continue like dis...
forgettin u doesn't mean i love you less.
moving on doesn't mean i've forgotton abt you.
gettin on with life doesn't mean i no longer care for you.
i have gone on like this for so long...
so long so that i cant even remember the last day i woke up without thinking johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1086517953558945582004-06-06T18:27:00.001+08:002004-06-06T18:32:33.556+08:00so long.
haven't been talking.
haven't been smsing.
haven't even seen her around.
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1086517717184265542004-06-06T18:27:00.000+08:002004-06-06T18:28:37.183+08:00so long.
haven't been talking.
haven't been smsing.
haven't even seen her around.
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1085765128254314572004-05-29T01:24:00.000+08:002004-05-29T01:25:28.253+08:00the internet world is horrible
seriously horrible..
i hate it when ppl leave weird notes in my blogjohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1085472502548306262004-05-25T16:06:00.000+08:002004-05-25T16:08:22.550+08:00been thinking abt it
actualli..
wads so nice abt clubbing
ok... i've been dere, done it but never been back for a long time.
personally i feel
clubbing is a time for girls to flirt around
to try to get de attention of guys
to make as much noise as they can with their girlfriends
n gauge how attractive they are by how mani stares they get.
for guys
its a time to ogle at girls
look at the girl johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1085058373075123722004-05-20T21:02:00.000+08:002004-05-20T21:06:13.076+08:00why sing
when singing brings abt one of the greatest tragedy in my life
i seriously would rather never have joined pj talentnight
seriously
why sing.johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1084723341468738992004-05-17T00:01:00.000+08:002004-05-17T00:02:21.466+08:00i'm ruining my life n i don feel as though i'm doin aniting abt it
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1084639389193148442004-05-16T00:42:00.000+08:002004-05-16T00:43:09.193+08:00i saw that old man
he lost a leg
crippled and helpless
he stands looking at all the passerbys
trying to sell in his hands
3 packets of tissue
wonder how he actualli gets past each day
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1084357620975576642004-05-12T18:25:00.000+08:002004-05-12T18:27:00.976+08:00dis blog is basically quite idle....
onli dat i'm writing short entries in dis everyday...
prefer de other blog where no one reads it....
hahz....
but well..
sch was okay today... did 2.4km and ran onli 1.2km when my knee decided to give away that same pain tat i felt during de test...
onli dat during de test i was motivated to run... so i ran in pain
but since i'm not motivated todae at all, johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1084268619163196192004-05-11T17:43:00.000+08:002004-05-11T17:43:39.163+08:00arts day's coming up....
n mebe we are singing..
hahz...johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1084268583318404752004-05-11T17:42:00.000+08:002004-05-11T19:55:04.353+08:00her memory lasted a day
yet he still loved her...
like no other...
watch
50 first dates.. it rockedjohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1084193072071238692004-05-10T20:42:00.000+08:002004-05-10T20:44:32.070+08:00this is interesting.. my tag board is showing all my past tags... just like reliving de past...
oh well... enuf of crap....
had a bad dae todae... was in a foul mood thru de day... walked around sch as if de whole sch offended me....
argh...
i want to be left alone
to live a life of solitude
of loneliness
to be in a world without emotions
without feelings.johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1084105031896320142004-05-09T20:17:00.000+08:002004-05-09T20:20:27.843+08:00happy mother's day to one and alljohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083931256730670682004-05-07T20:00:00.000+08:002004-05-09T19:58:17.966+08:00i so love my blog here...
friends who are reading this..
this blog will be dedicated to ppl who loves reading stuff abt my love life
so if u wanna know my other blog url, sms me, email me or just msg me on msn or sth ;)johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083931146123802072004-05-07T19:59:00.000+08:002004-05-07T20:03:14.780+08:00dee dum..
i will be the one to go the distance for u
to be your guiding star
and be there when you need me
i will wipe the tears and draw a smile to your face
won't ever break your heart
you have my word on this...
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083856551624901462004-05-06T23:15:00.000+08:002004-05-06T23:24:16.623+08:00i know that some ass must be reading my blog now
i don't know who you are and what u want from me
but here's wad i have got to say.....
i've had enough of all the crap you have been doing
tryin to find out which girls i talk to,
trying to find out in school which girls i come into contact with
and indirectly or directly insulting them online
yes i admit
i'm a fickle minded bastard or something.
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083847535045893922004-05-06T20:45:00.000+08:002004-05-06T20:48:47.810+08:00how do you know when you like someone?
i see you
yet i dare not look in ur eyes
i feel your presence
and that just warms my mind
i walk past you
yet i look straight into the ground
only when i've walked far
then my eyes dare to look backjohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083846858678094472004-05-06T20:34:00.000+08:002004-05-06T20:37:32.966+08:00i'm totally disappointed in my 2.4...
been able to complete it around 12 mins when i go to cck stadium...
but i failed it once again when it matters de most..
lets just say....
i'm realli really disappointed with myself.
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083774220870046442004-05-06T00:23:00.000+08:002004-05-06T00:26:53.013+08:00In the future - Dave Rice
in the future
when people ask about ur past
i wonder if i'm just a fictional character
whether you would even mention my name
in the future
when you look back on your life
i wonder if u would ever consider me being a part of you
or whether i'm just a passing memory, waiting to die
in the future
when you find someone else
i wonder if u would even remember
that i was johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083773628039306482004-05-06T00:13:00.000+08:002004-05-06T00:17:00.263+08:00weird.. its 1210am.. n i'm feeling kinda funny
an undescribable feeling..
de feeling when.. u dunno wad u are doin wiv ur life.. u duno wad is happening... u duno wad to do within de nxt hr, u want to sleep yet u cant, u want to study yet u cant, etc.. hahx.. weirddd
my rm's so quiet...johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083740653376440912004-05-05T15:04:00.000+08:002004-05-05T15:07:25.310+08:00being someone's first n last is indeed sweet..
but such rarely happens yah?
your first my last...
just who out there believes in this logic?...johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083671730402893322004-05-04T19:55:00.000+08:002004-05-04T19:58:14.750+08:00went to a specialist to check wads wrong wiv my knee and foot..
took an x-ray, etc..
n realised dat de bone structure in my legs were totally wrong..
and i officially have certified flat foot...
n supposedly haf sum "soft ligament" problem that is heditary.. (which my parents dont haf)....
weird.... hahax... my parents dont haf it, yet its herditary....
n so... i apprently can bend and johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083662790216427572004-05-04T17:26:00.000+08:002004-05-04T17:45:19.060+08:00Promises aren't always kept, prayers are not always answered nor do wishes always come true.
so true, ain't it?johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083588676306153102004-05-03T20:51:00.000+08:002004-05-03T21:27:00.890+08:00Just Friends.
We enjoy each others company
but for the most part, we avoid it.
We pretend there is nothing there.
We're just friends.
Every time we meet, it's awkward at first.
We check our guard and put up the walls.
We're just friends that's all.
We call each other on the phone,
and always have a good excuse for doing so.
Do friends need an excuse?
No they don't, thats why we talk
We can talkjohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083509292567071192004-05-02T22:48:00.000+08:002004-05-02T22:51:21.233+08:00arh
i'm feeling fat...
-sigh-johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083482174248151722004-05-02T15:16:00.000+08:002004-05-02T15:19:23.106+08:00love? wads that?
forever? eternity? huh? are those words in de dictionary?
missing ya? wad??? missing? dont get u.
hahz.
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083431364672100552004-05-02T01:09:00.000+08:002004-05-02T01:12:32.996+08:00too serious too soon - gareth gates
i wonder where you are
i wonder what you're thinking about tonight
i wonder...
maybe you're alone
maybe you've been crying just like me
i wonder
i don't know why i lost your touch
maybe
i wanted to be loved too much
too serious too soon
i wanted you to love me
i wanted to be there for you
like no one else before
too serious too soon
i wanted you to love me
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083427799149673382004-05-02T00:09:00.000+08:002004-05-02T00:13:07.420+08:00arggh arggh arggggggggggggggggh.....
john khoo chew meng.
wads wrong wiv u
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083427698555336272004-05-02T00:08:00.000+08:002004-05-02T00:11:26.840+08:00to suffer in silence....
to suffer alone....
hahz....
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083377042572687402004-05-01T10:04:00.000+08:002004-05-01T10:07:10.310+08:00i wake up
i look at my hp
i realise...
that this feeling
is not exactly
very great.johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083333545658884852004-04-30T21:59:00.000+08:002004-04-30T22:02:12.106+08:00k box rulz n rocks
thanks suying...
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083331120194617512004-04-30T21:18:00.000+08:002004-04-30T21:22:10.983+08:00got a horrible miserable mark for my lit assignment
my studies goin down de drain
and so is my life.
i'm thankful though
that i can seek solace in..
in..
music.
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083297265565557302004-04-30T11:54:00.000+08:002004-04-30T11:57:32.466+08:00mm...
seriously, wads wrong with boybands if they can present music in a way much better way than certain bands?
i'm not the type to piss ppl off..
but seriously, some guy out there has got to keep his jealousy checked...
first, he thinks his band deserved more to win when they didnt
and now he goes round proclaiming as though he's one of the best rock band member or sth...
if God gives u a goodjohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083250298895463772004-04-29T22:51:00.000+08:002004-04-29T22:54:44.513+08:00a surprise phone call...
hahx..johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083208349819948092004-04-29T11:12:00.000+08:002004-04-29T11:15:35.530+08:00something has to be done to myself..... i actualli signed out again
but yea
about 4 ppl dint come to sch todae
and jole's even better... she has gone to like relax or sth....
i need a break too
i need a break frm sch
frm life
how nice if i was some rich kid now
den i can go rent some hotel and live dere alone for a few days
go for spas...
etc..
but yea... i'm worrying for myself
have never johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083158219750621112004-04-28T21:16:00.000+08:002004-04-28T21:20:04.840+08:00hahz
my mind's in a whirl..
why are some things just so cruel
i won't mind gettin struck by lightning
if i can just end my misery
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083143905353741602004-04-28T17:18:00.000+08:002004-04-28T17:21:30.263+08:00A R G H . J O H N K H O O S U C K S ....johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083142524540761052004-04-28T16:55:00.000+08:002004-04-28T20:23:47.250+08:00i realli cant believe it... why de heck am i so emotional?
pioneerama was a breeze to me todae... it just went pass just like dat...
whether it was good or not, i didnt care animore
its fate... i guess...
yeah..
walked out of sch wiv mike clem n cam..
seriously, i hate myself
i just retreated into a world of my own...
dint even bother talkin to dem..
n when i went on de bus wiv mike... i just johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083081804374923192004-04-28T00:03:00.000+08:002004-04-28T00:06:28.700+08:00pioneer rama tomorrow...
mi n clem are goin to sing 'i miss u like crazy'
its a realli meaningful song
and every bit of de lyrics does cry out to me i guess?
its always good singing a song u can relate to...johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083032632829329212004-04-27T10:23:00.000+08:002004-04-27T10:26:56.310+08:00wo3 jue2 de2 ni3 hen3 xing4 fu2, ke2 yi3 xuan3 zhe2 ai4 wo3 huo4 bu4 ai4 wo3... dan4 wo3 zhi3 neng2 xuan3 zhe2 ai4 ni3 huo4 gen4 ai4 ni3..johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1083031355611758052004-04-27T10:02:00.000+08:002004-04-27T10:05:39.356+08:00sitting in the library now coz its free period as usual
i wonder why i come to shcool on tuesdays when all i come for is lit and GP...
had sum sex STD aids talk just now...
seriously... wads wrong wiv teenagers nowadays...
the whole value of marriage and sex and relationships seem to be totally tarnished and diminisihng...
----
the past week have been painful...
and so will tis week..
i still johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082986119031379842004-04-26T21:28:00.000+08:002004-04-26T21:31:42.013+08:00i prayed
but why didnt God answer my prayers?johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082884542250298472004-04-25T17:15:00.000+08:002004-04-25T17:18:44.123+08:00i'm in the mood of popping a few sleeping pills in my mouth
and sleep
and sleep
and sleep
till the nxt morning rises again.johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082884050127043762004-04-25T17:07:00.000+08:002004-04-25T17:10:32.106+08:00the first sunday i'm goin to go thru alone.
i sumhow woke up at 4am.. den at 530am... den i decided not to sleep anymore...
decided to write a song....
played tennis wiv my cousin for a while..
den i went to swim at my condo alone....
it rocks to be alone..... when u're tryin to put all ur frustratinos at the back of ur mind....
it feels great to be in the chilling pool on a hot day, looking upjohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082811909534392042004-04-24T21:05:00.000+08:002004-04-24T21:08:10.700+08:00college day today..
tried to force a smile on my face thru de day
but was feelin realli realli touchy
played squash.. smashed de ball as hard as i could todae..
but my mind wasn't on squash
den i sat down in de court alone..
crying at the pain i'm feeling
no one understands mi at all
i cant tell ani1 how i'm feeling
no one knows..
and i'm in this alone...
coz u're gone....
i tell myself i'm johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082721352069299882004-04-23T19:55:00.000+08:002004-04-23T19:59:11.606+08:00i think i really cant....
i really cant...
just 3 hours at home.. n dis is happening...
i cant..johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082719898259222792004-04-23T19:31:00.000+08:002004-04-23T19:34:38.123+08:00it is a sad day.
it was a sad day.
it is going to be a sad day.johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082709803478931502004-04-23T16:43:00.000+08:002004-04-23T16:46:22.936+08:00i've heard this time n time again... but it nv reali got into my mind before..
not until today's lit lessons
during shiqi, suying's and seehong's presentation
at the end of the slide was a quote
"love is not about receiving, its about giving unconditionally"
i fought back my tears at the sight of that quote
but it certainly gave me the strength to continue with the day..... strongly...
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082643541840950822004-04-22T22:19:00.000+08:002004-04-22T22:22:00.920+08:00why must everyone poke their nose into my business?
its MINE business.
why ruin things for me?
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082640549585930542004-04-22T21:29:00.000+08:002004-04-22T21:32:29.296+08:00forgive and forget those who harm you
forgive and forget those who are up to no good
miracles do happen
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082455237994507772004-04-20T18:00:00.000+08:002004-04-20T18:03:35.076+08:00i cant take it.
almost 11 hrs..
please tell mi its just a dream.johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082444072244969692004-04-20T14:54:00.000+08:002004-04-20T14:57:28.466+08:00i'm still lost
seriously wads happening
sleeping to forget ur troubles certainly doesn't work on me anymore
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082431621885378602004-04-20T11:27:00.000+08:002004-04-20T11:32:39.750+08:00When our loneliness drives us away from ourselves into the arms of the companions in life, we are in fact, driving ourselves into excruciating relationships, tiring friendships and suffocating embraces.
no friend or love, no husband or wife, no community or commune will be able to rest our deepest cravings for unity and holdness..
i drifted into school today at 8am. one more latecoming and i'm johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082385617513458122004-04-19T22:40:00.000+08:002004-04-19T22:43:13.403+08:00answer to my prayers
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082278742582339992004-04-18T16:59:00.000+08:002004-04-18T17:14:22.483+08:00soccer today... dere were like mani teams la... but it was fun... de feeling of wanting to win n stay on for de nxt game..
my team was probably one of de weakest there.considering that mike deserted us.. but well... stil had andy, his fren jasman, chyewei and another pj guy.. and of coz goalkeeper fantastic marvin (he was on form today)..
we gelled quite well, considering its de first time we johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082207432090845092004-04-17T21:10:00.000+08:002004-04-17T21:13:52.263+08:00.sense of insecurity.
it lies in my hands.
to be or not to be
its a matter of choice
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082132728767816612004-04-17T00:25:00.000+08:002004-04-17T00:28:21.840+08:00the school is seriously stupid
why make us go back on a saturday to take a stupid lit test?
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082112312630994272004-04-16T18:45:00.000+08:002004-04-17T00:27:28.746+08:00i so love my hair now
serves me right for not goin to monsoon...
i always haf this tendency to want to try out new hairstylists n regret my choice much later
help... :(
haha... oh well.. mike went to cut hair wiv me.. and at least he looks fine... serves me right for always tryin fanciful weird patterns... arhhh.... when will i ever learn frm my lesson.... oh well..wadeva it is.. tmr's gooin tojohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082039077820652192004-04-15T22:24:00.000+08:002004-04-15T22:27:29.716+08:00as much as i don't think i'll make it
watchin american idol on tv certainly makes me feel like singing n joining singapore idol... :S
sighx..johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5633730.post-1082028712114318302004-04-15T19:31:00.000+08:002004-04-15T19:34:43.793+08:00terrible headache today.. so i dint go to school..
i woke up wiv like throbbing pain... think i sprained my neck slightly also...
was pretty uncomfortable.... kept tossin n turning in bed and being unable to sleep coz of de headache...
got better after 4 panadols though...
ironic.. slept at 10pm yesterday... by far de longest sleep i ever had.. n i had to wake up wiv a headache... oh well...
johnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13257678485732431880noreply@blogger.com